Made For P

a box of apologies to make it up to my boy.

My Fair Lady

couldnt sleep from 3am last night until 9 this morning. head to school and teman P for shooting. Qing Liew misses me thats why she called. haha! met up and camwhore with her MacBook while waiting for P to be done.


its been really a while since i met my fair lady.
(i'll call her my fair lady from today onwards because she's freaking fair)
will work plans out for movies real soon!

i've been going through the toughest pain i had to endure for the past week. growth of wisdom tooth can be so painful, i didnt know that. :( dad said that different people have different reactions towards it. some may not feel the pain but unlucky ones will. that obviously, includes me. :(

besides, my family has been going through quite a tough time recently. dont have to mention what because everything is okay now; i hope so. during this period, everyone in the family has to show effort and affection to put us back together. and i, as the eldest, of course would have to play my part right. fingers crossed, when the past is gone, the better day awaits.

In A Relationship

set the past aside, leave it behind and start a new chapter in this whole new story.
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stop telling me that she's mad again, stop asking me whats there to do to gain him back.
both of you have been showering me with problems and questions like these for the past few months.
if your plans are to blow out my mind, you got it; sooner or later.
i've had enough.

its like buying apples without considering if its good or not. when you start eating it and found out it was rotten, you come to me and spit it out right at my face, asking me why did it turn out like this.

should the ones who behaved badly and caused the tragic aftermath be responsible for what we go through today; not me. not because im the eldest, not because im the wiser one.

i feel deeply pressured every time i think things in between. knowing the fact that im a part of it no matter what, i feel that i am in desperate need to mend things up. not to fix it flawlessly but at least for the better.

leave the past behind.
if you dont,
you'll never move on,
you'll never be happy again.

MR C

i couldnt take this anymore. i need to shouuuutttt ! do you think you could just come and go as you like and whenever you want? you've never respected my privacy do you? you dont have any ethics because you're just purely uneducated, yes you are. i wonder whats in that 0.0001mm mind of yours, for you could just appear in my sight out of no where. do you know that your presence never failed to freak the shit out of me every single time? sorie but the fact is, you are ugly. you are the ugliest thing i've ever seen in my life. i dont like you at all you see. so can you please stop bothering me and stop making my life miserable? i really couldnt be patient to you anymore and i have reach my limit of tolerance. if i ever see you again, i'll just have to eliminate you from the world. you are just a disgrace of your race and you're taking too much space on the earth. im so hating you to the extent where i've made a vow to myself. if i ever see you again, i will make sure your skinny limbs are scattered around the world, your brains are stuffed in your anus, your faeces comes out from your nose and your intestines are crushed into liquid form. in short, i will take your life away from you without letting you any chance to beg at all, BY ALL MEANS.

how does that sound? :)

its been four fucking days since i fell sick. why am i still dealing with all these pain? damn i am so emotionally disturbed now. i am emo, bitch. its a friday night but i dont feel like heading out. but for rachy's sake i decided to grasp some fresh air outside. in the end, plan was cancelled and it brought me down to the ground. besides, P just had an accident in JB and i am missing him terribly. tried to call but i guess his phone was dead. "hello, the person you called is unavailable" blablabla fuck im worried :(

why is this happening to me? im totally not a fan of mood swings but it did hit on me! menstrual period is not here yet. maybe thats the reason to it. i shall stop ranting and put myself to sleep.

:S

class has started! but i fell sick. Baby Rachy accompanied me to the clinic last night. glad that everyting is all good, just needed some rest to recover.

Qing! she removed her extensions and trimmed her hair. babe, dont worry. you still look good although your hair is short okay. :)


had lunch with her in Sushi Zanmai, Pyramid.


watched G.I. Joe. i give it an 8 out of 10 rating. its damn cool! i love to see an asociation unite as a force to defeat the opponent. i love unity! and i really adore Sienna Miller with her dark colored hair. one word, HOT.


been wearing mask lately to avoid the significant H1N1. i gotta go. need some rest again. those medicines are vaguely knocking the shit out of me. please take precaution steps and drink more water to avoid falling sick people!
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♥ How did I fall in love with you?

its been 2 months since semester break started. just like that, new semester has come and i am starting class next week. drove to school on monday and settled all the payments for repetition and resource fees. i feel like a big girl and am proud for handling all of these all by myself :) of course, i had to thank daddy cause it was him who taught me how to be independent.

sigh, talking about that made my day a bit gloomy. despite all that dad has done for me, i am acting in an irresponsible manner and made him foolish like that. :( i was fucking shocked when the statement of the amount paid since i started this course laid in my hands. the thoughts on my mind for failing all these while was just pure consolation to myself, nothing regarding the price he had to pay for stupid mistakes i've done. its a fucking 30k man i feel like a jerk and i dont tink i've accomplish any skills at all. i've not done anything good and to be honest, i still dont know how to handle the sewing machine and i've not sew anyting at all for my assignments. kill me now please. i dont wanna go on further about this or else i'll feel even worse.

anyway, i told myself, this would be the last time that i am ever gonna let him down. no more fucking around and waste dad's money down the drain no more! this WILL NEVER happen anymore!

things with P are gradually evolving to the better; i guess. bought candies for him and his nigga boys, they went jumping around happily like happy kids!

had been spending lotsa quality time with Baby Rachy lately; sleepovers, shopping, pool and drinking sessions. i realised i've develop stronger feelings of more than just bestfriend towards her. i tink the bond between us is even closer than biological sisters. precisely, an indescribable friendship!

and urm, bought this Takara Tomy remote toy car for P, from Toy R Us. the size is damn damn cute, say about 2 inches or lesser? omgatz!

it even has a Turbo button where once you press on it, the tiny car will move faster, just like what NOS does to your car :D


IT. IS. FUCKING. HELL. CUTE ! :D :D

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nose was fcking annoying these days wtf

i feel complete today. its all thanks to my 12 hours journey in slumberland. weeee! P woke me up today :) went down for food and grab a piece of big ass curry puff. the size was as huge as my hands you know, and i manage to shove it all down my throat. hahaa. anyway, i stoned for a bit while im eating it because P said my face looks like karipap! what an insult ! :(


went for seafood dinner in Puchong and coincidently, the table code was P! P for hehehehe :P


my cousin and her daughter, Komachi, came from Japan for holidays.


we rarely have photographs together. do we look alike? :)


I ♥ Mom !


had these for supper last night. some apricot pudding my cousin brought from japan.


fucking sweeeet and i likeeee :D

i miss P :)