sigh, talking about that made my day a bit gloomy. despite all that dad has done for me, i am acting in an irresponsible manner and made him foolish like that. :( i was fucking shocked when the statement of the amount paid since i started this course laid in my hands. the thoughts on my mind for failing all these while was just pure consolation to myself, nothing regarding the price he had to pay for stupid mistakes i've done. its a fucking 30k man i feel like a jerk and i dont tink i've accomplish any skills at all. i've not done anything good and to be honest, i still dont know how to handle the sewing machine and i've not sew anyting at all for my assignments. kill me now please. i dont wanna go on further about this or else i'll feel even worse.
anyway, i told myself, this would be the last time that i am ever gonna let him down. no more fucking around and waste dad's money down the drain no more! this WILL NEVER happen anymore!
things with P are gradually evolving to the better; i guess. bought candies for him and his nigga boys, they went jumping around happily like happy kids!
had been spending lotsa quality time with Baby Rachy lately; sleepovers, shopping, pool and drinking sessions. i realised i've develop stronger feelings of more than just bestfriend towards her. i tink the bond between us is even closer than biological sisters. precisely, an indescribable friendship!
and urm, bought this Takara Tomy remote toy car for P, from Toy R Us. the size is damn damn cute, say about 2 inches or lesser? omgatz!
it even has a Turbo button where once you press on it, the tiny car will move faster, just like what NOS does to your car :D
IT. IS. FUCKING. HELL. CUTE ! :D :D
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