its been four fucking days since i fell sick. why am i still dealing with all these pain? damn i am so emotionally disturbed now. i am emo, bitch. its a friday night but i dont feel like heading out. but for rachy's sake i decided to grasp some fresh air outside. in the end, plan was cancelled and it brought me down to the ground. besides, P just had an accident in JB and i am missing him terribly. tried to call but i guess his phone was dead. "hello, the person you called is unavailable" blablabla fuck im worried :(

why is this happening to me? im totally not a fan of mood swings but it did hit on me! menstrual period is not here yet. maybe thats the reason to it. i shall stop ranting and put myself to sleep.

:S

class has started! but i fell sick. Baby Rachy accompanied me to the clinic last night. glad that everyting is all good, just needed some rest to recover.

Qing! she removed her extensions and trimmed her hair. babe, dont worry. you still look good although your hair is short okay. :)


had lunch with her in Sushi Zanmai, Pyramid.


watched G.I. Joe. i give it an 8 out of 10 rating. its damn cool! i love to see an asociation unite as a force to defeat the opponent. i love unity! and i really adore Sienna Miller with her dark colored hair. one word, HOT.


been wearing mask lately to avoid the significant H1N1. i gotta go. need some rest again. those medicines are vaguely knocking the shit out of me. please take precaution steps and drink more water to avoid falling sick people!
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♥ How did I fall in love with you?

its been 2 months since semester break started. just like that, new semester has come and i am starting class next week. drove to school on monday and settled all the payments for repetition and resource fees. i feel like a big girl and am proud for handling all of these all by myself :) of course, i had to thank daddy cause it was him who taught me how to be independent.

sigh, talking about that made my day a bit gloomy. despite all that dad has done for me, i am acting in an irresponsible manner and made him foolish like that. :( i was fucking shocked when the statement of the amount paid since i started this course laid in my hands. the thoughts on my mind for failing all these while was just pure consolation to myself, nothing regarding the price he had to pay for stupid mistakes i've done. its a fucking 30k man i feel like a jerk and i dont tink i've accomplish any skills at all. i've not done anything good and to be honest, i still dont know how to handle the sewing machine and i've not sew anyting at all for my assignments. kill me now please. i dont wanna go on further about this or else i'll feel even worse.

anyway, i told myself, this would be the last time that i am ever gonna let him down. no more fucking around and waste dad's money down the drain no more! this WILL NEVER happen anymore!

things with P are gradually evolving to the better; i guess. bought candies for him and his nigga boys, they went jumping around happily like happy kids!

had been spending lotsa quality time with Baby Rachy lately; sleepovers, shopping, pool and drinking sessions. i realised i've develop stronger feelings of more than just bestfriend towards her. i tink the bond between us is even closer than biological sisters. precisely, an indescribable friendship!

and urm, bought this Takara Tomy remote toy car for P, from Toy R Us. the size is damn damn cute, say about 2 inches or lesser? omgatz!

it even has a Turbo button where once you press on it, the tiny car will move faster, just like what NOS does to your car :D


IT. IS. FUCKING. HELL. CUTE ! :D :D

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nose was fcking annoying these days wtf

i feel complete today. its all thanks to my 12 hours journey in slumberland. weeee! P woke me up today :) went down for food and grab a piece of big ass curry puff. the size was as huge as my hands you know, and i manage to shove it all down my throat. hahaa. anyway, i stoned for a bit while im eating it because P said my face looks like karipap! what an insult ! :(


went for seafood dinner in Puchong and coincidently, the table code was P! P for hehehehe :P


my cousin and her daughter, Komachi, came from Japan for holidays.


we rarely have photographs together. do we look alike? :)


I ♥ Mom !


had these for supper last night. some apricot pudding my cousin brought from japan.


fucking sweeeet and i likeeee :D

i miss P :)

i dont tink words could express how i feel at the moment. :D :D :D after a long year, after finally talking, i met P for the very first time; with the accompany of my beloved dad, stouts and heinekens somewhere in cyberia. HAHAA WTF oh well, i have to admit that i am feeling a little bit afraid if he doesnt turn out to what i least expected. however, in the end, the outcome was totally more than what i thought it would be. i tink i am happy like that. :)

on another thought, i need to confess i used to think that wealth and appearance is really important to me for a boyfriend. but now, i guess its all different already. when they say love is blind, they really mean it. nevermind, fuck that part. now, all that's important to me are trust, honesty, sincerity, pure intentions and the way he treats you. you people should know how human would change when time comes, but right now, this is the way i feel about it lah.

as much as i put my trust in him, i reminded myself that i shouldnt completely or easily believe someone, in detail; males. i know i shouldnt be biased to him for the fact that all my previous boyfriends had lied to me in different tings. but . . life always gives you lemon just when you're beginning to taste sweetness.

anyway, again, everyting is fated. i'll just move on with the flow and have faith in myself.

p/s : my car got clamped for illegal parking wtf! stupid residents who dont fucking know how to drive and yet complained that i was blocking their way. -_-

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since i've gotten my driving license, AIIII am the driver now. mom has been giving me tasks to fetch my bro while she's having fun in KLCC. but its okay, its all fine by me. :)

hung out with Jolene and Baby Rachy last night. it was fun catching up with the bitchy toufu again. LOL

this photograph was taken last year end i guess. shall take more with my girls soon!

on a random note, i knew i love you before i met you. yes? no? lol? hope i'll feel the same no matter what may happen. i dont wanna be a heartbreaker :(

♥ I Want My Superman :D

omfg. im slowly turning my life back to my unhealthy days. i've been having overdose sleep these days. hence, im gonna talk about the dream i had this morning, or afternoon. well, i was ... -__- have you guys ever wanted to recall your dreams but suddenly, you just tend to forget every single thing without a trait.

nevermind, at least i remembered this! i was thinking alot about having another puppy; preferably white maltese :) before i went to bed. wouldnt it be soooo nice if you could have an indoor companion which its barking is the first ting you woke up to, sleeps with you on the bed, a pillar of strength whenever you felt afraid, alone or whatever that weakens you, witness everyting that happens to you, practically live with you like your other half in life and the best part is, it would never ever cheat on you or betray your feelings for anyting at all. :)

oh my, talking about it makes me even more eager to own a Maltese. why Maltese? because they are the cutest creature on earth! :D hehehe


HOW CAN I NOT LOVE THIS CUTE DAMN TING HERE AWWWW

anyways back to the dream. i dreamt that my puppy, allegedly known as a mixture of almost 10 breeds wtf ( i didnt even remember how it looked like) and the funny part was, it has a looooongg name that consist of all the dogs name you could ever tink of. haha its shit aint it! lol

so when i woke up, i started browsing names for dogs. i found quite alot of ridiculous and hilarious names. such was like Babushka, Bahama Mama, Banner why the f you wannna name your dog a banner? hahahahhaha , MADAME BUTTERFLY HAHAHAHAHAHA Mahi Mahi, MAI TAI (maybe its some kind of thai name), Pokerface and so on. okie, i dont know if i should laugh about those or not. but who cares HHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i see potentials in names like Bam-Bam, Baileys ( damn nice drink wtf ), Pebbles, PORSCHE *laughs*, Pudding, Muffin, Skittles, Jello, Babylove, Chery ( thats the name of my tamagotchi last time lol), Whisky, Chivas, Cola, Green tea okay its getting more retarded. on top of all, i would very much love to call my petdog SUPERMANNN :D of course, if its a male. if vice versa, i'll tink about that when i am really getting one.

one more photo. they said its ChangMin's pet dog. you know, the dude from dbsk or tvxq whatever is that. LOL

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anyways, im ending this post here. take care!
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i feel emo-ness out of a sudden. :l listening to emo malay songs like tak bisa memilihmu & tanpa by 6ixth sense, menanti sebuah jawaban by Padi and berhenti berharap by Sheila on 7. maybe its because i woke up late and had no plans for the day. oh well, time flies. my semester begins on August 3rd and i doubt everyting would be the same again. there i would be, dealing with classmates most probably younger than me a year of two, for my own ridiculously made mistakes.

in another happier note, we celebrated Eli's birthday in Cova Restaurant on the 17th of July. Food was great and managed to meet a couple of new faces :) Definitely gonna be back for more.



photographs are limited cause am still waiting for the lazy photographer to upload more. /cheese


and had a splendid outing with Baby Rachy last week. ♥

that's about it i guess.

i had never posted any videos on my blog. but these duos are awesome shits.
:)

im stunned over everyting that has happened. although its unbelievable, i hope it would turn out great. :)

i want these!

kthxbai
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